Listening to Seunggi makes me feel a lot a lot better. For some time now, I forgot the meaning of carefree. Probably it's what we call moving from innocence to experienced.



Mini reflection: I think once I like or love something I'll love it for a very long time.

Left my job after 2 weeks + 5 working days notice :) Thank God. But will be rotting at home. Shall help my dad out but still most of the time decomposing laa. After that awful work experience (okay, to me was rather awful) I started to cherish what I have and have become grateful of the support given to me by others.

I thought deeply about who I am and came up with many negative descriptions of myself. Criticism to make myself reflect then improve to be a better person. Feedback from others: Take things to heart, sensitive, emotional, easily affected. I reflected and acknowledge these problems of mine. Plus I feel I'm too well-protected and sheltered by my family. Am grateful to my family who have not laughed at me for tearing home every day and have sincerely given me advice on my situation. Even though they each have their own problems at work and we have problems working out a good family relation but all of them did all they can to help me. This made me feel very.. touched. :)

My group of classmates aka Hamsters(?) too. I still remember what Fabian said on the night we sent Ben off at the airport. "You can earn this much but what about your happiness?" Like W-O-W. Answer: Negative value. My family too, cares more for my happiness than the money I earn. I like this. I love them. No point staying on and being so bitter everyday. Money is important but it's not everything in my world.

Back to watching my shows but the recent dramas are a little blehh. Just finished watching 3 eps of a Korean variety show One Night Two Days and Episode 52 was touching at the end. Made me think back of the Batam kids, my Aris and Goong Goong and all the little kids who chased after me calling me their Goong Goong Ka. Gosh I really miss them and the kind of carefree days spent together. They have so little on the material aspect but so much in soul.


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New Year resolution for a brand new me. Targetting at my weaknesses and analysing feedback and criticisms, best solution is LEARN TO LET GO. Some things like BBQ Pork will expire and decay after some time so must throw away and cannot be too emotional over trivial things. For greater things, Evelyn Chen, you better be more rational hor. Or I HOOT YOU.

Alright, reflection completed. I must put in more effort to be hardworking too, cannot be so lazy every day or I'll rot at a faster rate. Oh myy.

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