Listening to Seunggi makes me feel a lot a lot better. For some time now, I forgot the meaning of carefree. Probably it's what we call moving from innocence to experienced.



Mini reflection: I think once I like or love something I'll love it for a very long time.

Left my job after 2 weeks + 5 working days notice :) Thank God. But will be rotting at home. Shall help my dad out but still most of the time decomposing laa. After that awful work experience (okay, to me was rather awful) I started to cherish what I have and have become grateful of the support given to me by others.

I thought deeply about who I am and came up with many negative descriptions of myself. Criticism to make myself reflect then improve to be a better person. Feedback from others: Take things to heart, sensitive, emotional, easily affected. I reflected and acknowledge these problems of mine. Plus I feel I'm too well-protected and sheltered by my family. Am grateful to my family who have not laughed at me for tearing home every day and have sincerely given me advice on my situation. Even though they each have their own problems at work and we have problems working out a good family relation but all of them did all they can to help me. This made me feel very.. touched. :)

My group of classmates aka Hamsters(?) too. I still remember what Fabian said on the night we sent Ben off at the airport. "You can earn this much but what about your happiness?" Like W-O-W. Answer: Negative value. My family too, cares more for my happiness than the money I earn. I like this. I love them. No point staying on and being so bitter everyday. Money is important but it's not everything in my world.

Back to watching my shows but the recent dramas are a little blehh. Just finished watching 3 eps of a Korean variety show One Night Two Days and Episode 52 was touching at the end. Made me think back of the Batam kids, my Aris and Goong Goong and all the little kids who chased after me calling me their Goong Goong Ka. Gosh I really miss them and the kind of carefree days spent together. They have so little on the material aspect but so much in soul.


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New Year resolution for a brand new me. Targetting at my weaknesses and analysing feedback and criticisms, best solution is LEARN TO LET GO. Some things like BBQ Pork will expire and decay after some time so must throw away and cannot be too emotional over trivial things. For greater things, Evelyn Chen, you better be more rational hor. Or I HOOT YOU.

Alright, reflection completed. I must put in more effort to be hardworking too, cannot be so lazy every day or I'll rot at a faster rate. Oh myy.

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Today was a super bad day. From in the morning when my rubber band broke, I should have known it was a bad omen. Not that I'm superstitious but taking Literature makes you more sensitive to metaphors and signs. In my case, my first job experience would be a mix of a thriller, horror, gore and especially tragedy.

Thriller for the heart-pounding pressure we feel during work everyday, the need to close a deal before lunch time. Horror for the constant fear that we missed out any information or said something ambiguous that the customers may challenge us with or even challenge us to court. Simply anything can land us in a legal case. Gore for the feeling I have of work everyday, that disgust and dread, the palms-over-eyes everytime a new contact list comes then Horror once more when it's a foreigner's list. Tragedy encompasses all the "If only"s, "I should have", "Why is it like this" and especially "I cannot take it anymore but I must go on".

I don't know why I must hang on so tightly for this job. I said I would respect the job and I really tried but I lost all due respect in a day. Like seriously. If I'm to be treated like that, even if I get paid $10 per hour it's freaking pittance to me. Pride more impt and principles most. Yupp.

Today is a winding road, that's taken me to places that I didn't want to go~

Was at a loss today after work. On the sign out book was penned an indirect humiliation and injust towards me. At the moment I only had one thought. Leave the place first. Even though Kangaroo asked me to confront Supervisor but I was so weak and afraid and affected that I only wanted to run away. Shiat. I really really hate this side of myself.

Contacted a few of my closest friends and oh my tian, Tay DK super xie xie ni oh! While I sat by the road and cried, I was talking to you neh! Malu cos of crying by the road but at least I busied myself with tlking on the phone :) Cried for like over an hour(?!) Then on the bendy bus super a lot of people stared at me. Gosh, must have been very obvious that I cried.

Then from opposite AMK Library I walked home along the main road cos the park isn't brightly lit and it was close to 9pm already. Met this two boys in skinny jeans who got nothing better to do in life. They're gangsters I think. Tattooes and cigarettes? Sashay down the pavement in their classic Ah Beng style then try to disturb me. Wts. Cry so what mans~ So I stared at them then they did their "Wah I so scared" as expected but I just walked on lo. Are you awed by the audacious Evelyn Chen? :)

Went home and Jie was on the sofa watching tv. She took leave since she lost her voice. Took a long warm bath to soothe my tensed nerves. Then answered Pig's call. Wahh she super ji dong on the phone and her voice is super high-pitched mans. She's auto loudspeaker even if you're on handset mode. Nice description :) Discussed about tomorrow's Konfrontasi.

Am so touched by all my friends' support. Plus my family. Wahh unity in a long while O.O Rare case. Gor Gor sent me an email for some temporary staff application. Dasao asked me how work was and listened although Elise is hospitlaised but she still spared some time for me. Daddy penned a resignation letter for me to type out. Mummy says I can always find another job, what matters is that I like the job and am happy. Jie Jie is the best, normally she doesn't talk much to me then Mummy will relay news to her but today she asked why I cried then when I teared, gave me the whole tissue packet to use. Plus she asked her friend to get us milkshakes and tarts. Important thing is, she requested for my share wor! And she told me a secret :) Nobaddy else knows :) Makes me feel closer to her ^^







Tomorrow is drama day. Gotta confront Supervisor. And will not be swayed into working further at the company. Even though I've grown to like my fellow colleagues. Those bimboes may be bimbotic at first but they'll warm up to you after some time. Just when I'm starting to blend in with everyone, I gotta detach myself from them. Today I was moved to Room 3. Room 3 is really happening. Super funny. I like the colleagues but not the work itself.

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This video reminded me of my buddy buddies :) Was so blessed that Zanne's birthday was on Sat. Really looked forward to the end of work. That's the first day I left work feeling more energetic than ever :)
I will rmb to upload the pics soon :D HEH. Was watching 3anguo during the weekends hoping it'll lighten my heavy heart and it did. Watch on, especially behind the director's cut! Speaking in dialect was super funny. (if you understand dialect.. There's mandarin translation too)





Yupp finally the weekend arrived. Been counting down the days, hours, minutes, seconds to 2pm on Saturday. Every single day I live to hear the "Okay Room 2, last call". Pathetic life I'm living right, I know.

Truth be told, the first day of work (minus training and lunch) had only 4 hours and I was already dreading it. This si baldie (not bald but balding) stood behind me and eavesdropped on my conversation. Although I closed a deal, I got scolded for the way I phrased my words. My entire life's very first day of work ended very discouragingly. So after I got off the bus at AMK Drive-Thru I had to walk 10 mins to get home. During that 10 mins I was super upset and dripped tears. Sigh.

Next day I believe Baldie tattletailed to Supervisor. Cos Supervisor went to listen to the recording of my conversation with my customer. And then he gathered the trainees in conference room and sat down with a whole list of red ink. My mistakes. So you see, even though I closed a deal, I'll still get scolded. Thank youu very much indeed. Got super affected when I went back to my Room 2 and teared a little. Bit my tongue and tried not to cry. Breathed hard and hed my breath several times. Overcame it :) Near the end of the day, called a customer and her name would be one I would NEVER EVER FORGET. BWSC.

This woman got irritated by the calls from our company cos she extended contract before Christmas and she was hounded by our calls even after that. Actually if I'm her I'd be pissed too. But not to this extent. Took my full name and place where I worked. I believe she lodged a complaint against me. The morning after, Supervisor said they received a complaint against Someone. At that time I believed Supervisor was kind and understanding, protecting a small trainee's reputation and feelings that's why he didn't divulge the name.

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Kyuhyun is just as cute and comical as ever ^^


2010 reminds me of.. PERFECT 10. 10 points upon 10 points! *2PM's song plays in head*
Mel gave me 2 YouTube links yesterday and 2PM's rendition of Abracadabra is JUST GROSS but funny. Jo Kwon (in pink jacket) is OH EM GEE *covers eyes and slams laptop screen down*


2PM's parody of "You're Beautiful". watch it Watch It WATCH IT!!


NICKHUN IS LOVE! Especially after he found out Wooyoung (Go MiNam) was a guy he INSISTED he was a girl LOL! see 09:25! Love the songs :) And the ending! HILARIOUS.

Tomorrow I'm going to start work!! Oh man, scaryy. Most of the people I'm working with comes from the same AJ class. Goshh. Met some people who are working for a rival company today LOL. Daryl, Junfeng, Mama. From the way they describe their job, I got more worried. Aaah. And Michelle said after a few days will be sian. Must have LOTS of patience and a VERY good temper. Hopefully will not sprout any vulgarities :S but am not such a person so.. should be able to control??

"Rival company" is CJ dominated while mine's AJ dominated. Feel like hopping over hearing all the benefits, free shuttle bus provided by the company to Jurong from Bishan, 2 weekdays for off days per week, free flow of coffee or tea and a vending machine that sells canned drinks for 50 cents. Wow. And compared to my ulu workplace.. T^T

But then my company allows me to wear jeans and shirt for work on weekdays and shorts on weekends while "Rival" requires the guys to wear formal attire, shirt and pants like office staff. Wonder what the girls have to wear. And my working hours are more humane, 10am to 6pm for weekdays. (Even though I need about 2 hours of travelling time there and vice versa, 30 mins to wait for bus and to reach AMK mrt, 40 - 45 mins to take the train from AMK to Bugis, 20 - 30 mins to walk to the building.)

GAHHHHHHH. I guess everything has their pros and cons. Have to commit for 3 months. Alright, when life throws sour lemons at you, YOU SQUASH THEM INTO LEMON JUICE. (or was it lemonade??) Haiya same la same laa. I hope I will be able to endure it all. Am already dreading lunch time, all the AJ people will talk amongst themselves then I shall play violin on my wrist in a corner or play PianoLite on my Iphone. SIGH.


I say 'HEE', you say 'SICA'! 'HEE'! 'SICA'! 'HEE'! 'SICA'! Rmb Heechul's famous imitation of Jessica in Intimate Note? ^^



Hong Gil Dong OST "If" by Taeyeon. Her voice is really.. *awed*
Haven't finish watching the remaining 10 eps :( Watched a little on Ch 56 and OMG Yi Nok's grandpa died and her character changed from bubbly to vengeful. Goodness. Scared of the ending, my Da Sao said the characters died but Mel's sister said the three main characters lived. Wo bu yao tragic ending!! URGH, hate tragedies. Will pinch myself to stay awake to watch it after I come home from work. :)


Yes, am flooding my blog with videos but the photo uploads need a lot of effort and it's extremely time-consuming. I will upload soon! Or meet me online then I send the photos over? Would that be better??

Alright, tag my board to reply? I need to go off, find a notebook, pack my bag and think of what to wear and sleep. Waking at 7. Oh myy left 3 hours. Freak! Need to leave house by 8! Okay alright, see you! SMS ME, I lost all my contacts! (again)

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