I'm fine with it. it was a love that seems to be fine like this Even though I knew you couldn't return, I want to be connected to you It was the first time I felt this way As time goes by we can still meet occasionally Because verbal promises were natural I'm fine with it as well
This wish of mine which won't come true anyway That you would fall in love with me again Such a transient wish of mine Today I want to meet you again
I'm fine with it. it was a love that seems to be fine like this Before I knew, you even refused to meet me
When I'm alone I start thinking At that time, should I had rather forgotten (about you)? But these tears are the answer, aren't they? I can't lie to my heart
It's almost scary that I can remember your smell, your action and everything “Weird, isn't it?”, please say so and laugh Even though we're separated, it's nothing but you
I never thought that love would be so painful, that love would be so sad I realized that I was serious about you
It's almost scary that I can remember your smell, your action and everything “Weird, isn't it?”, please say so and laugh Even though we're separated, it's nothing but you
You are someone inside me that I can't forget about, someone who offered me everything Even if you can never return anymore Right now it's only you, just you Nothing but you
I dedicate this to someone. But you won't ever know this song's for you. Oh wells, here goes nothing~ (eeh? Sylvester's band name in Republic Poly: Here goes nothing. Hahaa)
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Tuesday, July 28, 2009 /
11:50 PM
Thinking of using my LiveJournal account but only people with LiveJournal can read my blog. And my last entry was 55 weeks ago! Oh my goodness. I still rmb I signed up for LJ to read Tania's blog. My One and Only friend on LJ. And I'm not sure how to use it too. So I'm still hesitating. Or maybe I should use Wordpress. Then again, friends cant save the pics directly from my blog. Sigh sighh.
Everyone's having quite a hard time now so there's practically no one I can talk to. Met Jer almost everyday for the past 2 weeks to talk then this week's a sharp contrast with only 1 day in common to meet. Quite boredd now. I need someone to talk to and amuse me~ Tension's been high everywhere. It must be hint hint from God that since there's no human to talk to, TALK TO GOD hahahaa. Shall try before I sleep tonight. :) And I'll remember to talk to him about my Work-Hard Buddy cos he's going through a rough patch. :)
Sigh, I have to settle shooting shirts. It's really damn damn damn frustratingg. Don't know why I ended up collecting sizes, orders for the shirts and payment for them when I was only supposed to COME UP WITH THE DESIGN. Then now some refuse to pay and I'm not even close to them, how to tell them that it's a club thing and the shirts are already ready for collection.
I can't even collect the shirts now that they backed out, I am already forking out to pay for 6 shirts including the J3s' share and it's $54 okayy. Why must I sacrifice when I can use the money to watch movies, eat lunch etc. And then there're people who are so bloody inconsiderate who deliberately don't pay up on time or better still don't pay up at all. >:( Pardon my language. Yuheng's name suddenly floated into my mind. I think he got offended when I dropped the 10 cents change on the table and called him "stingy" then Fabian and Junyi said I was mean so I thought it through. It just naturally came out like that, I wasn't thinking much. As my good friend, I hoped you'd understand but seeing that my sms wasn't replied even days later and today you ignored me but said Hi to Junyi, I could already guess you're angry la. Sorry. (@.@)
Shooting club fund only allows me to pay for Coach's shirt (Aaron didn't want the shirt but his size fitted Coach so I let him do that but that day I was quite sad, kept thinking that maybe my design wasn't nice enough for shooters to be proud to wear out that's why so many didnt want. This dumb sense of inferiority's killing me.) so now what? Save another $18 and buy over the extra 2 shirts? Well done. 8 shirts. Congratulations Evelyn Chen, you brought yourself this mess.
Urghhh. I'm most angry with myself. o(>.<)o Who else to blame. I really fit into what the class calls as "Act can jia". Alright, no use whining over the situation. Get it over and done with. Freak this situation, taking up so much of my time and thoughts. Tomorrow will be another day when everyone shoot me with "When are we collecting our shirts?" BE STRONG, EVELYN CHEN. No one can help you but yourself. I am already expecting people to look at my design in disdain. (T^T)
"Yucks, why turn out like that?" "Walao, this is damn ugly" "Yaa! How to wear this out!"
Mental preparation downloading. Hopefully the colours turn out nice. Gold and silver are a bit tough to get on dri-fit shirts, they're usually on cotton ones. I'm predicting they changed the colours. :/ Oh man. This is such a nightmare.
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Saturday, July 25, 2009 /
5:14 PM
Today is 2009 PTM Part II.
*Dang Dang Dang Daaangg* Okay laa, it was just a repeat of the last PTM. With more focus on maths. OOPS. I still find it quite hilarious at the idea that the whole class flunked maths though. We ought to get some award, "Top Class in Consistency For Flunking Mathematics" Even though I had small improvements but my results are still shitty-fied. Darn it.
Went to shop shop with my mum at Novena then went to Bishan to see clothes and I bought a shirt/ blouse. Yayy, it's been a long time since I bought something :) Dabian gets to buy expensive clothes all the time from Forever 21, Dorothy Perkins etc at Vivo while poor me buys from neighbourhood shopping centres~ BOOHOO. Emo iz jealouxz. Sigh, that explains my standard outting attire, shirt + skirt :( Never mind, Belinda said she likes the way I wear them :D
Saw Adeline, Cheryl and Eve. Oh myy, they have really changed a lot. Mo grew out of her mushroom head and has long hair :O Eve's too, long alrd and they both straightened their hair. Wasehh. Nicee~ Shall try that next time. I need Daryl's "salon" and my "hairdresser", Gabriel first.
Sighh. Adeline they all were my besties in Sec 1 and 2, but then now we kind of drifted apart. It's really such a shame and pity I can't fit in with them anymore :( Though I really want to. Everyone has their one and only best friend to confide in but somehow I dont have one. Kind of envious of such people, like Yuheng's friends hang out with him since Sec 1 and even until now with different schools and everything, they still meet up frequently. So nice.
I sort of miss St Nicks' now. Never thought or bothered so much about such things before. Just being the goofy me who does what I like when I like and basking in everyone's laughter. Plus their laughter is genuine, that I really amused them and they enjoyed my company, not those kind of laugh at me cos they think I'm a joke or weird etc and not those kind of sarcastic ones too. I miss my St Nicks life.
Yupp, took him out for a walk around the neighbourhood :) He's exhausted in such a short time mans, lazy doggg~
Yesterday was MEGA SAGA MAMA. My laptop wire tripped my sister-in-law o(>.<)o Oh man, nearly lost my little niece but she broke her fall in time before her chin landed on the top of Whistl'e play-pen. Wasehh if not the fence might have cut through her jaw. Even though it's blunt but the impact of it.. oh well, shall not dwell on it. She's got a bruise across her chest from it. (@.@) I feel terribly horribly bad now. (T^T)
And then Whistle (YES HE'S BACK! YAYY!! made me cry for nights for nothing, cheat my feelinggs~) wee wee-ed on the floor and he whined for help. Kept whining and whining until I woke up from the sofa (fell asleep while watching tv) and went to grab toilet paper and plastic bag to clear up. He went to smell his wee wee and I thought he might lick it so I pushed his ear and he growled. Kept growling and being fierce so I froze in my position for 20 mins. BAD DOGGIE. When I stepped out of the play-pen and curled on the sofa, he stood and whined for help again but when I went near the pen he hurriedly ran to protect his wee wee. AIYO protect for whaaaatt. But his urine has specks of red, may be blood. See luh, keep all the wee wee inside, when go for walks then spray all over. Tsk tskk. Have to bring him to see a vet soon then~
WARNING: AGGRESSIVE.
That's why the new owners returned him to us, he protected his leash and wanted to bite the little girl when she tried to take it off him. AIYOOO~ Oh well, he learnt what I taught him and got sent back :) YAYY!~ Should teach him more naughty stuff to learn.
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Saturday, July 18, 2009 /
11:45 AM
He's gone.
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Friday, July 17, 2009 /
6:38 PM
The day started off with the most entertaining maths lecture :D
Firstly, Fabian asked Kriff about a song title and she said "Your butt is mine", which really is the song title but for those who don't know that there was such a song, it sounded super wrong :O So Fabian, Ben, Jarad, Queenie and I kept laughing and laughing when Fab annoyed Kriffith and he said "Okay okay, chill. I'll give you my butt okay. It's yours, just take it" OMG damn funny.
Secondly, Fab and Ben were making fun of Kriff to the max. Fabian kept urging Kriffith to whack Ben cos he claims that Ben bastard her (internal class joke, no wait, more of a tease). "Orh hor, Kriffith! Ben bastard you lehh. Whack him!~ Whaaack him!~~" Fabian really distracted us and it caught Ms Lee's attention then Ms Lee called him to answer a question. So Fabian stunned then Ken Chew told him TWO so Fabian shouted TWO! with confidence when the question didn't even have a 2 inside LOL. Ken malu-ed Fab mans.
Then it was Ken's turn to be malu-ed. At the quietest moment of the lecture, there was a loud "Proooooot~" which echoed through the lecture hall. All of us stunned until Fab exclaimed "OH MY GOD, KEN CHEW! YOU FARTED!" Ken quickly denied and tried to explain himself then Kriffith started laughing uncontrollably. And I got bad, not exactly bad, it's DEVASTATING news. I was seated in front of Ken Chew. Oh man. Fart at full force. Whaaat is this! So victimised please. (T^T)
During PE was funny too. While we harped on the fart issue, the class created a new "vulgarity" to be targeted at Ken. Instead of the normal, prevalent "F you", it will thus be changed to "Fart You" Hahaha Hahahaa! It's during these retarded times that I seem to love my class Hahahaa!
Near the end of the day, received an sms that contained depressing news. It was very bad. Kept thinking about it then it made me teared. Been going through a rough time on my own for the past few days but today confirms the case and I really really dislike the outcome of it.
You were a pleasant surprise when I first saw you. Since 29th September 2008, I have never stopped loving you. But today will mark our last day together.
This whole freaking issue has been giving me a hell of a time for the past few days. And it won't be any easier without you around.
Although I honestly hate this, I have no position to voice out anything. Although I seriously dread this, I have to accept the decision made. Although I really love you, I have to let you leave and send you away.
I hope that your days ahead will be filled with love and joy. Don't be too upset when you realise the truth. It wasn't meant to turn out this way. When you remember us, I hope you only remember the love and kindness we have for you. I wish things would be better for you, that you will meet people who would love you as much as I do and that the whole family will accept you and love you as well. This is where our fate ends. But you know our love for you would never die. Because somewhere deep down, you have touched us and we have subconsciously left a place for you in our hearts and in our memory.
Thank you for all the joy and laughter you've brought. I love you, you know I really really do.
~29th September 2008 - 17th July 2009~
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Sunday, July 12, 2009 /
8:22 PM
Been wasting my study time to watch a Japanese Drama and Korean variety shows. Oh man. I super duper uber love Super Junior, DBSK, SS501, Girls' Generation and SHINee now. Freeaaak. So hard to choose. I've been super enjoying this Korean variety show and no matter how many times I've watched it I still laugh as much. That's how funny it is (: Watch these!
If you have time to spare then watch from the start, Super Junior's really cute and hilarious! If you don't, then just skip to video number 3~
"Milky Skin, Kim Heechul! We love you, Kim Heechul!" Hankyung was really funny at the start, laughed like madness~ Oh yaa, DID I MENTION THAT HEECHUL ACTED IN "GOLDEN BRIDE"?!
Cross-dressing and a parody of Girls' Generation's new song Gee. Seems like everyone made a parody of Gee Hahahaa~ Here's the full version, subbed in English :D
Clearer HD version with no subs, only has the Gee parody and Sorry Sorry dance :) Heechul's really pretty! OMIGOSH~ I love him to the max in this vid, so cute and funny
Another parody of Gee, it's super gross man~ Subs in Chinese only though (>.<)
Okayy, now I shall return to watching my "Thread of Destiny", realised the movie really sifted out the main parts of the television series. Quite draggy but I want to know the ending, the movie's a cliffhanger, hopefully the TV series isn't or else I really bang my head against the wall.
God tied you and I together by your little fingers with a long red string. This bond of destiny cannot be seen And there is no map to you So I will fall in love with you when I meet you
It is said that after a person is born, He will meet approximately 30,000 people before he dies Of those, the number of people you'll meet in school and at work is 3,000 And of those, you'll intimately know 300
Among all those encounters, it's said God has arranged a special one for you One made from before you were born However, that bond of fate is invisible to everyone And yet that unseen person in your destiny is connected to you By a red string on your pinky
That's why... I fell in love with you the moment we met.
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6:26 AM
WARNING: IMAGE OVERLOAD.
HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY, DK!! (=^▽^=)
May you stop growing any taller so that Zanne and I don't have to fight with you for fresher air :) And I hope you have a scandal soon cos now everyone knows mine (aaaish.) and I would like to make fun of you once in a while too (actually, make fun of you always Hahahaa!)
Thanks for being there when my friends pangseh-ed me and I wanted to watch movie alone. Hahahaa therefore you and Mel saved my day! I'm super touched, xie xie ni mu-en! :D Had fun bluffing and hiding from Duck and Ah Neh too HAHAHAA
Me loves you duo duo! And so do the rest of us :) *hits chest twice and points*
AP: "Ooops, sorry I don't have electric mixer lehh" :X Zanne: "Should have gone to my house, we can make ice cream too, got new ice cream maker.." AP EYES BIG BIG *shiny*
Decided to try out one small circle to see if it's successful..
Mixer of the Day: ZANNE
Showcased Masterpiece: Brown Brown Sticky Fragrant Choco Sludge
Dishwasher of the Day: MEL Showcased Masterpiece: None. (All were re-used after washing)
Making the icing first since I forgot to pre-heat the oven (>_<;)
Look like ashes hoh! DK, if you're eating your cake now, DON'T SPIT IT OUT!
"I stir, and I Stir, and I STIR STIR STIR!"
Lonely brown sludge sitting in his pancake home having a really hot sauna~
Icing's almost done!!~
Ta Daaa! The icing's done and the lonely sludge grew up! (not~) It's another pan laa~
GAHHHHH!~ LOOKS SO TEMPTING RIGHT. Smells super nice too!
This is the Mama Cake! ^^
And the Baby Cake! Aka the lonely sludge after the sauna session
"Next, smear the icing as evenly as you can over the surface of the cake with a knife or spoon. Audiences, please be reminded to watch over your kids if they are attempting it with a knife."
Lol, act like Cooking channel~
Jiang Jianggg!!~
Zanne: WE AP: ♥ Mel: DK
:D :D :D
Let you admire it again :) [The really choco version] Chocolate cake plus chocolate icing plus white chocolate words :O DK, remember to drink more water k!
Then we did colourful colourful "beads" over it! <3>
MISSION ACCOMPLISHED.
YAY YAY YAYY! o(^-^)o
BOOOOO. T^T
HOR, zi pai without me lei~
Then I crashed in! :D
Supposedly an act cute pic.
Didnt plan properly and this is the result~ HOR I ODD ONE OUT AGAAAIN? Lol I don't know why my pose so retarded.
Before that, let me continue the story from yesterday. Okay so today Mel, DK and I met up at AMK Hub to watch Thread of Destiny(Akai Ito 赤い糸). Here I must kneel, bow and kowtow to them to apologise cos I woke up late, like super late~ T^T Was watching Atashinchi No Danshi through the night and slept at 7am, you see. And the meeting time was 11.30am :X Plus AMK Hub near my house. @.@
I love the two main characters (≧∇≦) but then some parts of the plot v exaggerated. If I lost the opportunity to tell someone I liked him and if I assumed my best friend betrayed me by dating my love, I wouldn't jump off the building baa. Just poke their eyes will do wad. :O Kiddingg laa!
Sigh had a really nice plan to surprise DK but since I overslept, the plan is ruined.~ :(
ごめんなさい!
Met Zanne and went to K Box outside AMK Hub. Whooo, the place quite run-down, the building's quite old already. And outside there's a snookerium(?)
While DK and Mel went toilet, it gave me and Zanne a golden opportunity to lay the cake!
However, we were caught red-handed (> <) They came back too fast~ Tsk tsk.
Nice effect!
HORRR~
Shirt from India! Dk, Mel and Duck bought it for me while they were in India for OCIP last year! And there's still a pair of earrings, pink guitars (^_^)v So nicee right! But I didnt get them anything from Batam (°□°;)
Cutting the cakeee~ :) [sorry~ no candles~ :X]
Mel singing! Waseh I couldn't differentiate whether the voice from the speakers was hers or the machine's. COOLNESS.
Due to the video being corrupted, I can't open it at all. Thank goodness, who'd want to see me dancing pleasee. *phew*~
Leaving K Box, GUESS WHO I SAW?!?
CHRISTINE AND JONATHAN :] (Jon as photographer, he die die don't wanna take pic with us)
This two ah, confirm something going on already laa! Jon sacrificed family outing to meet someone nearer his heart, you see! He fever that's why our family outing cancelled but with his fever, he can still meet Christine!
Orh hor, Didi and Christine aah, keep the relationship from the family for waaad~ tsk tsk.
Went to Jumbo seafood restaurant in Serangoon Country Club for dinner with my mum's god-sister's family. And you know what?! My mum and her god-sis have the same birthday! They've been godsisters since the dinosaur era and they didn't know they had the same birthday. Oh myy tian. Yupp, so I'm gg to repeat: HAPPY BIRTHDAY, AH BUU!
Gabriel was our photographer~
Oh yaa, from afternoon's K Box, there was karaoke in the VIP rooms of the restaurant so the uncles were trying to force me to sing. Oh man. We got generation gap pleasee~ Sing waaaad? Sianzxz of singing already, my throat wants to enjoy the food more~~ Of course must eat more right, so ex the food. I think 8 courses is over $700. Haven't add GST? Waseh, indigestion.
Ended up, Uncle ____(?) sang instead. The one at the far right. Shall post it up if I have the time, his voice is rich mans.
Gabriel in the photo now. He's damn super zai to the max! And he's only 21 with all his achievements. (O.O)
Okayy last group photo!
Went home and had another cake! HAIYOOO. But I bought this for Mummy, so I must eat :)
Pretending to cut the cake~ Mummy, you how old already~~ Still want to pretend~ Tsk tskk.
Answer: "OEI, don't put so many candles! Like very old leh! Put one can already laa!" Reply: "Walao, Mummy, you want to act young~"
"I young at heart wad, cannot mehh"
Mum with act cute glance.
Mum with shy look.
Mum with authority
Making a wish~
Jie Jie played truant at the dinner~ Cutting the cake :)
My slice of the cake!
And I haven't poo poo-ed for like close to 7 days with all that food. That's why I demand the PE Department to re-take my Height and Weight! HURR HURR~ (T^T)
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WARNING: AGGRESSIVE.
AP: "Ooops, sorry I don't have electric mixer lehh" :X
Decided to try out one small circle to see if it's successful..
Mixer of the Day: ZANNE
Showcased Masterpiece: Brown Brown Sticky Fragrant Choco Sludge
Dishwasher of the Day: MEL
Making the icing first since I forgot to pre-heat the oven (>_<;) 
Look like ashes hoh!
"I stir,
Lonely brown sludge sitting in his pancake home having a really hot sauna~
GAHHHHH!~
And the Baby Cake!
"Next, smear the icing as evenly as you can over the surface of the cake with a knife or spoon.
Jiang Jianggg!!~
Zanne: WE
Then we did colourful colourful "beads" over it! <3>
MISSION ACCOMPLISHED.
BOOOOO. T^T
HOR, zi pai without me lei~
Then I crashed in! :D
Supposedly an act cute pic.
Didnt plan properly and this is the result~
♥. d. k.
♥. d. k. times three! :D
However, we were caught red-handed (> <) They came back too fast~ Tsk tsk. 
HORRR~
Shirt from India!
Cutting the cakeee~ :)
Mel singing!
CHRISTINE AND JONATHAN :]
Gabriel was our photographer~
Gabriel in the photo now.
Okayy last group photo!
Pretending to cut the cake~
Answer: "OEI, don't put so many candles! Like very old leh! Put one can already laa!"
Mum with act cute glance.
Mum with shy look.
Mum with authority
Making a wish~
My slice of the cake!