Those who are very close to me would know that when I am super affected, either by events or by people, I would go somewhere quiet and sit by myself. On Saturday I thought I could take some time out for my own and decided to take a breather but I ended up making others worry for me and I felt so bad. Anyway it wasn't just one issue that affected me so much laa. Thanks for running all over and trying to find me. When everyone asked where I ran off to I didn't want to reply so I just gave a smile. It reminded me of someone who would sense something wrong and search for me for hours until I am found. Record: 2 hours 17 mins o.O I felt a lot better sitting in silence and rubbing my face into the tissue paper. I miss those times when I could really be myself and just let my weaknesses show. I miss my Evelyn Chen.

7 months. It's been a long time. Hello again.
This time, be prepared. I am ready for a stronger me.
I won't let my weaknesses show.
I will swallow my tears.
I won't bow my head to fear and worry.
I will do whatever I can in my capacity to be strong.
I won't allow you to bring me down.
I will be strong enough to face it all even when I'm all alone and no one cares about me.

Yet sometimes I still have that secret wish that maybe someone would still find me. Oh my goodness. Cannot cannot. Alright, no more of these. Don't falter, my Evelyn Chen. Don't fall down, concrete girl. You can do this, please.

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Had drain walk for PE today and the drain was HORRIGEEBLE. Saw a family of catfish at the entrance and they're so cute luh! They live behind a mini waterfall in the drain! Fab wanted to catch one to keep then Mr Jeffrey damn funny, he say "You miao to it first lor, see whether it agree. If it agrees, it'll miao back" HAHAHAA. Fabian started off first and as the class crowd around and watch him bravely waddle into the darkness, we felt quite scared and uncertain of what we might face in the dark dark tunnel. I was afraid of the tunnel so I keep letting others go first and especially Jarad's vulgarities made me dare not enter the tunnel. Since it's a tunnel and voices echo, we could hear from where we were at the entrance that Stella didn't dare to go further but she can't U-turn back so she just got to keep moving on.

Oh man, right at the start I soaked my shoes into the water already. HECK. Just don't fall down while climbing in I'd be grateful. Wanted to highlight that in front of me was Becca and behind me Kriffith so it'll be hard for me to spot them in the tunnel (ZOMG I not racist laa! night blindness, my bad my bad). And so, the fear increased. But I liked the way our class set aside our differences, prejudices and fears to encourage each other in the dark. Halfway through the tunnel I squealed when some frog or toad or stupid cold thing banged itself on my ankle (lucky it's not some floating object with seaweed hair, bloodshot eyes and heavy eyebags grabbing my ankle luh!). Okay laa, I screamed like every.. 20 sec.. 30 seconds. :) Although when I caught up with Becca in front and she held me hand to lead me in the dark and I held Kriffith's to lead her too, we let go when we saw THE LIGHT OF SALVATION. Then Becca moved quickly towards it and so did I but then I slipped and fell. Wah piaang. The water daaamn gross and my legs and left shoulder were soaked. FREEEAAAK. Was super freezing cold after that.

EMERGING VICTORIOUS, we found out that there was still a part 2 :( And part II wasnt so bad, there's light just that you get to see and if you're stupid enough to touch wasp's nests. Darn gross. So evil me was waiting to see whether Ben's hands would accidentally touch the nests. Hahahaa. But I didnt pay much attention cos my hand swiped a spider web. =.=" When I was reaching the end, Aaron and Ben stretched out their hand to help me but I was sooo proud of myself and since I was dirty after falling down, I got out myself :)


I stepped on a pile of leaves and twigs floating on the water. :/
Mr Jeffrey followed at the back of our class and he asked "Eh what's this?", looking at the pile. Then Aaron was damn bad, he said "Evelyn stepped on it and broke it!" then he laughed and laughed and laughed. *glares* Mr Jeffrey spotted and pointed out to us another catfish :) At least I broke the twigs, then it'll float towards the entrance where the catfish can follow the pile and reach its family okayy. Good deed lor! At least I didnt step on the catfish~

Climbing up the ladder and on the grass trying to reach the railings, I couldn't balance then fell again. Aiyo. Wet hands and knees plus soil isn't that nourishing for the skin. :( Thank you Ken Chew for helping me up. Thank you Kriffith for continually encouraging me although I couldn't keep quiet. (Sorry laa~) After a session of talking where Fabian hilariously linked walking the tunnel to marriage (marriage = black hole), Junyi, Becca and I went to wash our shoes. Thus we conclude our adventurous outdoor PE. I have a secret wish to do drain walk again :)



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Met up with RPB and we watched a movie on the laptop as usual. I think cannot watch movies with this person, you'll either cry or depressed after that. Last time, we watched "Marley and Me" and although the front part was rather draggy and I was super tempted to fast forward it (eh the dog darn big damn freaky mans, eat sofa somemore), I really enjoyed the ending. Even though I cried super a lot and the people walking by kept staring at me. Okay laa, pretty also dont have to stare so hard right. LOL. Rubbish.



Today we watched "A Millionaire's First Love" (백만장자의 첫사랑) on Mysoju and freeeaaak. Damn sad to the max. But not bad laa, I like this kind of movies. The guy will remain faithful after the girl leaves, eternal love FTW mans! (OMG I realised I spoiled the movie for you all. Oh Oh. :X) Korean dramas and movies all kind of favour this trait :) I like I like! :D



Sigh. There's H1 exams next week already. And my lit's so GG-fied, we've only done Chapter 11 today when it's tested until Chapter 18. Plus GP we don't do much work, maybe we improved argumentative skills cos all I do in GP is to counter Mr Tamil calling me "Evil" and defend myself, eg: he said I had a bad word on my arm cos one word read "FOC" which is abbrevation for "Free of Charge" and not pronounced as a word itself =.="

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Oh nooo :( I'm so shittyfied and GGfied and deadified and corpsey-like and oh-oh-you're-in-trouble, double died. :(

Life comes one full circle and punches you in the face to make sure you get an ugly orh bak kak so that you'll learn your lesson well. Just yesterday, Dabian said she's having cramps and today mine came. =.=" So after I woke at 7.32am and jaw dropped at my shorts and bed, I was thinking that today seemed kind of important. I managed to recall today's Mama's birthday, at night there's Korean Boys over Flowers on Channel U at 9.30pm and there's Little Nonya Musical (OMG I actually rmb this?) After changing everything, I pounced on my clean bedsheets and tried to rest after a hot drink and my cramp medicine then I slept soundly til 11.30.

When I woke up my first instinct was to check my phone and FREEEAAAK. Rebecca msged me to ask me whether I was going back to school at all for the make-up tutorial I signed up for. Shits. I totally forgot and I happily watched TV and "Marley and Me" again during midnight until 5 plus. So dead luh. I told my mum and she jaw dropped also but she didnt scold me too harshly because she forgot as well. Only said I was damn blur and I should be the one responsible for my own stuff, she can't be there to remind me all the time. Which is true. :( But she ended with "cos I'm a blur sotong too" which made me =.=" instead of being repentant and guilty about forgetting my lesson. I think my dad will behead me if he knows I forgot :/

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HOR. If my buddy buddies read this they'll say I chuang huo (get into trouble) again.
Haiyo :( Don't like to misunderstand and get misunderstood. Plus don't like to be cold to others, nor others cold to me. Oh wells, since my that friend seems really angry all of a sudden and doesn't reply my smses, I've decided to stop initiating a contact. I feel quite shameless pestering people to talk to me, give me time to explain things through. Like some despo. Don't like that :S

Rushing through History Research Assignment after 9pm (8-9 was spent on watching the super extravagant and grand wedding of TV stars Shaun Chen and Michelle Chia who chose their wedding car to be a vintage one similar to my Gor Gor's wedding), all I accomplished was a detailed QA, an intro and the first topic sentence :/ Kind of slacked after hearing the deadline postponed for one more day.

The long weekend was full of outings too, shall update later on (:
Then on Sunday night I watched Harpers' Island and there were disturbing scenes which made me feel scared and easily over-sensitive. Oh man. And I watched a video about a celebrity relating a ghost story which happened to her Korean friend. Thus I am up until now, trying to tire my eyes by staring at the laptop. Hahaa damn lame.

Just now Yuheng couldn't sleep and I wanted to do something light-hearted eg watch a funny vid or sing a made-up tune any old how so he came back online and we started trying to do a video call but my laptop kept responding slowly and his webcam cant see anything so all I had was this:



Lol, okay the time now is 3.19am. Maybe I should try packing my bag and searching for my History tutorial's QA for tmr. Wonder if Ms Lee would praise me for looking at the wrong timetable and doing her Maths tutorials in advance. Hehh, I did my work according to Monday's schedule and I jaw dropped at the double GP period for monday. Later's no better, History the whole day.

For break: SEA History file check + rush International History tutorial
After break: International History tutorial
After school: International History remedial on End of CW
At home: Finish up on SEA Research Assignment

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