I thought you understood that I'm not such a person.
If you believe others and don't trust me then from now on, let's not be friends.
Trust is my criteria for every friendship. I believe this person is a good person with a warm generous heart, I believe I can exchange my heart and sincerity with this person. You aren't that person.

I know I am not beautiful
Nor am I smart
Nor am I talented
Nor petite, nor slim, nor adorable.
That's why I put in extra effort in cherishing every friend that I have.

Had a quarrel. Slapped with sarcastic remarks.
Was told to check this friend's blog. Got a shock.
Told them not to do such things and got angry previously.
But they freaking just don't learn.
To make their lives interesting, they used me as entertainment.
If this is how you all treat your so-called friends then get the hell out of my life please, I don't want to be associated with such people.

And how I wish I've got the courage to tell that straight into your faces.

But I hate the hypocrite me who tries to endure and smile, laugh the matter off and talk to you all nicely face to face. Been there, done that, doesn't work. So tired with my own family already and now this. I don't want to talk or explain things anymore. Seriously. It's damn tiring. Don't even try and ask me anything. It irritates me more and I'm not in the appropriate state of mind. Get so pissed with everything I keep asking myself why am I even born in the first place.

Thanks to Daddy who brought up this point on my eighteenth birthday. Was so hurt by the thought that my presence was not appreciated and he chose to say it on my birthday. Wonderful. Now I see the meaning in your words. Because my so-called friends don't give a damn about me and use me for their own entertainment too. I despise myself because I know tomorrow I'll just be living life as a coward again. I hate myself. I can stand up to defend for others but why can't I defend for myself. Sucks.

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