I AM DOWN WITH FLU :(
Went home with Junyi ystd cos she was sick. Bought like.. 2 cups of bubble tea from her void deck :) Grape Italian Soda and Yam Milk Tea. Jer came to meet me after band prac and he brought Ed, Gene and James along too. Overwhelmingg please. Walked around AMK Hub and Ed tried on WOMEN'S SHOES because I was lamenting that I can't get shoes in Singapore, dont have my size. omggg. retardedd to the max. Quite awkward cos I didn't know the other two boys and I wanted to run away, felt so extra luh. Uncomfortable~ BUT I stayed on cos Jer was supposed to treat me a meal. :) Food maketh me. Fool maketh you. :D
Ordered a $6 Green Curry set but couldn't finish. Ed helped me to finish then when Jer commented that he was like a dog, it reminded me of my classmate Jarad HAHAHAA. Have been playing a "pet" game in class :) Previously when Whistle was sold away I was damn damn super depressed and Benjamin thought of Jarad as my new dog to console me. Yupp, so now he's my dogg :D Need to send him for training to curb his aggression and some grooming services too.
Going home, the atmosphere became rather reflective and quiet because of the person who walked me home. Oops. But it was nicee laa, managed to talk to a person about what's been happening to me lately. Some things cannot be put on the blog :) This person really understands me to the point that it freaks me out. Oh man. No wonder the horoscope says Pisces and Virgo are compatible. :O Yucks, okay I take back my words.
If I get so affected by one person maybe it would be better to cut this person out of my life. I don't think it's worth it worrying, thinking, sighing, being all depressed for this one person when I have the freedom to treat myself better. Anyway when I was most depressed this person didn't even bother. So it makes me such a fool that I'm constantly thinking of what might make him happy and how is he now. Tried to give up but I cant, even without contact nor seeing him for months I still think of him. Time will teach me to gradually forget.
Eventually I will.
Anyway I have larger issues to deal with at hand. Nothing's going the way I want it to be :( At home or in school. Going crazy, crazy, gone.
If everyone's in a conflict and I have no one to turn to, I must be strong enough to gradually guide each one back to the way it was before. It may be lonely, it may be hard, I may be the only one left in this fight but I am not allowed to give up. When the world turns its back on you, tears you shed won't be of any use. If attitude is shown at you, swallow your tears for you must be strong. When people accuse you, question you, wrong you but by shouldering the blame you can make your friend's life easier. Why not? Even though it's quite hurtful that the rest doesnt trust me but if I can protect just that one friend I'm willing to do so.
