Had a nice chat over msn with Zanne today. Oh maaan. These days nobody talks to me on msn anymore, so sad right. Did a lot of catching up and I spilled my secrets out to this girl. Haiyoo. Made an evaluation and decided I feel very retarded over the issue. But what to do, I am still struggling to get over it. Can you believe it. I don't know how it began but I know I was quite reluctant to end it. I typed each word on my phone with a heavy heart, trying to explain this outcome. Then I retreated. I needed time to think. When our last argument broke, it wasn't a heated one, it was simply a game of ignorance, making it clear that you were avoiding me. Even until today I still feel wronged, you were unreasonable and too much swayed by the people around you. Maybe one day when I have enough courage to face you again, I'll share with you a tale of how someone was eventually moved by your sweet actions and gradually made so comfortable in your presence that trust was put in you. Just that this trust was breached and never again reciprocated.
I started saying I need to forget this but somehow half a year gone by and I still can't so might as well I face it instead of trying to avoid the problem.
Well you're the closest thing I have, To bring up in a conversation About a love that didn't last But I could never call you mine, Cause I could never call myself yours. And if we were really meant to be, Well then we've just defied destiny, It's not that our love died Just never really bloomed
Well I can't let go, No I can't let go of you You're holding me back without even trying to. I can't let go, I can't move on from the past Without lifting a finger you're holding me back.
And then we saw our paths diverge And I guess I felt okay about it. Until you got with another man, And then I couldn't understand Why it bothered me so. No we didn't die we just Never had a chance to grow.
I can't let go, No I can't let go of you You're holding me back without even trying to I can't let go, I can't move on from the past Without lifting a finger you're holding me back
And it might not make much sense To you or any of my friends But somehow still you affect the things I do And you can't lose what you never had I don't understand why I feel sad Everytime I see you out with someone new
I can't let go, no I can't let go of you You're holding me back without even trying to. I can't let go, I can't move on from the past Without lifting a finger you're holding me back.
I can't let go, no I can't let go of you You're holding me back without even trying to. I can't let go, I can't move on from the past Without lifting a finger you're holding me Holding me
And still I can't comprehend, why it bothered me so. Getting worked up over trivial matters and being so sensitive. Without deliberation, you've transformed me into someone I wasn't. The opposite of Love is not Hate, it is
Indifference.
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