Those who are very close to me would know that when I am super affected, either by events or by people, I would go somewhere quiet and sit by myself. On Saturday I thought I could take some time out for my own and decided to take a breather but I ended up making others worry for me and I felt so bad. Anyway it wasn't just one issue that affected me so much laa. Thanks for running all over and trying to find me. When everyone asked where I ran off to I didn't want to reply so I just gave a smile. It reminded me of someone who would sense something wrong and search for me for hours until I am found. Record: 2 hours 17 mins o.O I felt a lot better sitting in silence and rubbing my face into the tissue paper. I miss those times when I could really be myself and just let my weaknesses show. I miss my Evelyn Chen.
7 months. It's been a long time. Hello again.
This time, be prepared. I am ready for a stronger me.
I won't let my weaknesses show.
I will swallow my tears.
I won't bow my head to fear and worry.
I will do whatever I can in my capacity to be strong.
I won't allow you to bring me down.
I will be strong enough to face it all even when I'm all alone and no one cares about me.
Yet sometimes I still have that secret wish that maybe someone would still find me. Oh my goodness. Cannot cannot. Alright, no more of these. Don't falter, my Evelyn Chen. Don't fall down, concrete girl. You can do this, please.
Enough of being Silly Crackhead.
