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Tuesday, March 31, 2009 / 11:15 PM

I guess he doesn't read my blog anymore, he never reply ):

NEVERRR MINDDD. Thus I conclude we are over and done with :)
So many others spy on my blog mans, quite surprised o.O
Don't comfort me over msn, sms and face-to-face laa~ Mr Tagboard's saaad he ain't popular!

Monthly shoot on Sunday was super sudden, completely forgot about it and didnt train for about 3 weeks?? :X Thanks to my super duper uber bad cold didn't exercise for a week *JAW DROPS*
And on Friday after hanging out a while at Alfresco, Christine, Jon and I left for AMK Hub. Jon went to dine with his Cat High friends (Zeming arhhem arhhem) while Christine and I went to pig out!

PIGGING OUT EVIDENCE:

For the monthly shoot all CJ APW came late and started late HAHAAA. OH MY GOODNESS, my sighters FREAKINGG ZAI and my first competition shot was a 10.9! Had 10.9 TWICE ^^

But I sneezed and shot a 2 :(
But I jerked and shot a 4, two 5s, many 6s and several 7s :(
But I got distracted by Fabian's call and shot a 4 :(

Ended up being so stressed out I had trigger freeze, meaning I dare not pull the trigger. So I was the last one to complete the shoot, just nice, at the very last minute I completed :) And Thank You Very Much Mr Range Officer, who stood behind, scrutinised and sighed many times at me that my confidence hid itself underground with the rabbits. He daaamn mean luh! After he took my last series, he went to the spectators' area and said "Applaud Applaud everyone! She FINALLY completed her shots!" Walao Ehh. Tsk Tsk. Therefore I had to make noise and I accidentally whined. Christine thought we both knew each other luh! I DON'T KNOW HIM AT ALL WORXZ.

Waiting for results, APW ate MAGNUM ice cream! Yayy! ^^ ICE CREAM UNEMOES EMO!
And my score was quite bad laa, got 315 :X Hey Hey Heyy, must rmb I havent trained for weeks and the rest trained nearly everyday okayy. Hmpf. The best on the list is 365. Zai to the max.

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Anyway, I feel a lot better alreadyy :)
Although I had a mini chat with Ms Lee outside class, super paiseh when my friends walked past.
Mel and Duck very happening now eh, DK smsed me ystd and tdy to update me wor!
Added smiles and laughter to my emo life Hahahaa!

And thank you Jerome for getting me the Nike shoebag although it IS coincidental my everything has been Nike-fied, I am not a Nike fan laa! You spy on me right. Tsk.
Will put your shoebag to good use luh, and I like my SGH shoebag cannot is it. Waste money to buy new one waaad, I don't need after this year anyway~ Ayee, okayy laa Thanks for supplying to my demand. Heh Heh.

I changed blog song to a happier one (: This song's sweet to the max

I'm crazy over this show now mans, WOOTS!
All 8 scandals please stand one corner, my eyes and heart have only room for two of my loves :D

P.S. EMO RAN 2.4KM AND OBTAINED A "C" GRADE!
Aren't you proud of me?!~~~ Q(^.^Q)
Ms Lee said "All is not lost yet. If you all are willing to try hard now I don't see why you won't do well. If you work conscientiously and start now, you will make the cut and get into the U"
Funny how it works, Trading my "U"s for "A"s to get into a U. IRONYY!

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Wednesday, March 25, 2009 / 11:50 PM

After watching BOF, I've got so many songs I want as my blog song but for now this song suits me most at this moment. Probably the title caught my eye. "Fight the Bad Feeling" by T-Max. I absolutely love the drama and the OST to the max. I'll put the songs one by one, I think it can last my blog song section for months (: Right now, I need a lot of courage, determination and discipline for me to "Fight The Bad Feeling", pull myself together and work hard.

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Received super disappointing results today. Totally got the shock of my life.
And although I may appear to be cheerful around my classmates, shooters and juniors, I am seriously freaking worried and anxious within.

While walking home I did a little reflection. I remember Ms Teo getting frustrated when I didn't want to go up to the board to write and I insisted on waiting for my group to discuss the question first. She then shouted across the class "Okay Evelyn, you are wasting everyone's time. Just don't take A Levels okay!" Thank you very much. Childish me cried over that and thought Ms Teo was picking on me but now I realised what she said was true. Maybe History isn't my cup of tea. Maybe I should drop it. But in J2.. There's no turning back. And I'm seriously scared. Rajoo said he doesn't know how to help me. With the same teachers, Josh is a potential A student, Aaron and Best have unique styles of writing and Fabian and Kriffith are improving. And I'm hitting rock bottom.

Something's super wrong with me and it freaks me out that I don't know why I am like this.
Worse still, complacent as I am in certain subjects, I still studied for my exams which makes it more frightening that I am not improving but sliding down instead.

Maybe my method of studying is wrong.

History's really disappointing, all my energies were spent revising it. Econs was the worst results I've gotten for the subject in my life, even when I've read through my notes. Maths didn't improve but I'll need more honing and practice, that at least I know where I've gone wrong. GP was a huge unpleasant shock. I know my essay screwed up but I didnt expect it would turn out so bad. Freak. Now there's only Lit paper left. Queenie said Ms Yao told her most of our class got U for Othello which constitutes half the paper. FREAK. Hutt Shun said he heard that those who have 3 Us have to see Mr Tan Jek Suan and I would die of shame and embarrassment in front of a teacher, much less a Vice Principal. OMG. I dont want. I dont want laa. Why like that. Shit.

Above all these anxiety, worry and disappointment, I feel worse that I let so many people down. I know I am weak academically and so many have supported and encouraged me but I let them all down. I seriously hate this feeling luh.

EVELYN CHEN.
WHAT'S YOUR FREAKING PROBLEM.
WHY ARE YOU LIKE THAT.

I know it's no use crying over spilt milk and actions speak louder than words but just let me dwell in my failures and think whether the path I've chosen is right for me. I don't wish to give up on my subjects but.. I don't know, This time I really don't know.

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Monday, March 9, 2009 / 7:56 PM

HAPPY SANGATSU KOKONOKA DAY!!

I still remember we were super lame, we four plus Adalia and Jasmine went to the balcony and sang this song from Zanne's phone then it became kind of awkward since everybody's too shy to sing. The idea itself was weird luh!!

(But the idea was from me :X)

Loved the song til death do us part last time mans, I can memo the first half! :D
Aww, I miss the weird moments we had last time :( Now nobody does crazy things with me already :( And arhhem. TOMORROW'S HISTORY COMMON TEST. GGFIED. No mood to study! HURRR.

Credits to Becca :) It's kind of small.. You can right click on it and open in a new tab to view! :)

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Wednesday, March 4, 2009 / 11:10 PM

Happy 18th, Eddie (:

Here's a song for you, it reminds me of band sessions
And I remember you sang this after the first week and modified the lyrics too

If you wanna fight,
I'll stand right beside you,
The day that you fall,
I'll be right behind you,
To pick up the pieces,
If you don't believe me,
Then just look into my eyes,
Cause the heart never lies

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Ran Cross-country today and my whole class ran under the competitive category O.O
Kriff and I wanted to walk but then the J1s really freaked us out by being so serious so we ran, jogged and walked :)

The ground's super uneven and filled with small evil stones which schemes to trip me while jogging. And there were many massive holes in the slopes the size of craters on the moon, okayy not massive holes but big indentations in the ground. Damn bad luh, not as if I'm a rabbit right, trap me for what mans. Twisted my ankle when I jogged into the hole =.=" But not that painful laa. Then I fell onto this girl who was super scary, she was running very seriously up the slope and she got irritated I lost balance and fell, as in leaned onto her so she pushed me back violently :(

Wahh I tell you the climax of the cross-county was at the end! FABIAN KOH ACTUALLY OVERTOOK ME. WHAT THE HECK. And he came in 12th placing for J2s! Not long after I ended my run, the J1 Yuheng finished his run and came in 19th for J1 boys! MY GOODNESS. Future PTI already, stamp plus chop plus sign plus thumbprint plus high five! *jaw drops and shakes head in amazement* Brought Fillet O Fish to school for breakfast and I think I tempted Ben and Becca, giving them INSPIRATION TO EAT FILLET O FISH :) So we three had it for dinner, meaning I ate 2 Fillet O Fish burgers in a day >.<

"Hello. We are tested on UN for CTs laa. SBQ. You wanna bet or not."

FREAKOES. So I'm ending this post now to have supper with Hammarskjold and gang(:

Here I go, So dishonestly
Leave a note, for you my only one
And I know you can see right through me
So let me go and you will find someone

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Monday, March 2, 2009 / 1:35 AM

VALENTINES' DAY 2009

Yes, super lag I know~ I still owe the Chinese New Year update and Open House + Trials + Interview updates. Ggfied mans. HEY, PATIENCE IS A VIRTUE (: Be patient but don't be a patient yo :) Oh man. LAME.

Went to meet Jerome in the morning at AMK Hub for brunch while supposedly waiting for his "girlfriend" to come after that. I know everything already laa, don't hide hide. Then he passed me Guylian chocolates from our good friend. Yupp. So.. Just take and run (: Sounds so greedy!

After reaching home, conversed with Ben and Becca over the phone if we still wanted to go out so decided to meet eventually. Told a lie that day :( And got caught :( But was forgiven after I told the truth, forgiveness with a pinch of indignant tongue-lashing :/

Saw Ziqian and Cherry while I was lost looking for Donut Factory in Novena's Velocity, havent seen them in a long time :)

AT DONUT FACTORY

Becca's food, some rubber chicken she ordered, quite hard to chew

Macaroni and cheese~

My tomato soup which was given some other weird spanish name., can't remember
Tomato soup then Tomato soup luh, act fancy lehh
Make my life difficult with a tongue-twister name, TSK TSK.

Anyway I thought it was just soup but it came with an egg and noodles! Not bad, not bad

FOOOOOOD~ :D

In Literature, Food symbolises Love and the nourishment it brings.
Oh man. Ms Yao's gonna be so proud of me :D

Wait. So means.. I eat a lot and have a substantial size thus I'm filled with lots of love??
HEYY. what the heck! In order to say I have a lot of love I have to admit I'm fat?
WHO'S THE IDIOT WHO CAME UP WITH THIS THEORY! OWN UP NOW!
(scarly some poet rise from the grave mans. okayy better don't own up please, rest in peace)

BENJEEMIN.
looking dark for once in his life

ambience to suit the lovey-dovey mood for V day <3>

spastic.

BECCA AND I! HEARTS~

Becca, to protect our privacies, I shall not upload the long video that Ben took of us okayy!

Yaa and she laughs at our Ez-link cards
Wait til you see hers! Tsk Tsk.

Had a FANTA-BRILLIANT IDEA while I was in Donut Factory. Super missed my Buddy Buddies then *tink tink* EUREKA! Part of the idea came from Dabian too laa. She wanted to go out with me then we arranged to meet after I met with Ben and Becca but her mum won't let her out. And I think something's wrong with my brain, sot sot alrd. Planned the surprise for her while travelling from home to meet Ben and Becca. Then decided to extend the surprise to my Buddy Buddies <3 onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhd13Tp5vVSExY9VUoOEChCCIuwZXk9HrkbiREqyf_7j69m1dOqZxrCOamWsBsuX-GvpAw_DeewCHbKa-HGcWg9fYg0CxPGa75HeuPzQUrQfDzDm0Lmh4YffBIS8GIIaOwUYJW2HDsdW8p9/s1600-h/DSCN1163.JPG">

Took 2 ++ hours to reach her house okayy! Cos I went to the wrong mrt station. I remembered it was Bukit Gombak but it's Bukit Batok. So from Bukit Gombak I had to take 2 buses to her house and I missed one bus each of the 2 buses I had to take. Plus I fell down while alighting the first bus :'( And so malu, I wanted to surprise her at her doorstep and I even cooked up some story to tell the guard if he catches me at the gate but I GOT LOST and had to call her. Aaaish. Loser mans.

Eeeh your mirror dirty laa!

Dabian, where's all my other photos?? The one with the sun and the nice jungle backdrop! Tsk~

Left her house at 8.15pm and when I got to Sembawang it was already 9 plus. Lucky Gabe reached Sembawang at the same time as me (took the same train I think) so saved me from waiting. Walked to his house playground and talked a little since he's feeling so stressed out. Poor thing, he's taking H3 Mathematics and he's got SYF coming up. But he's an all-rounder mans, academically strong, physically fit:was in Track & Field doing Pole Vault in secondary school, musically talented: doing a Grade 8/ Diploma for Piano, playing French Horn in CJC Symphonic Band and has a super nice character.

Madness right. I wish I have half his achievements luh! And he's humble about them too.

BEHOLD, the scary all-rounder~
HEYY, although I'm all-ROUNDer too, don't scrutinise my peekture like thaaat pleaaasee.

And he's so nice luh! Cos he stays near Gui then after our chat he wanted to go up to his house and get something for me to eat since I haven't eaten dinner and also plaster for my uber humongous blisters but I needed to rush so didn't get food. *rubs tummy*

He shall be nominated as Most Thoughtful Friend! and All-Rounder too! Freaky mans.

And I realised my fringe is screwed. >.<

GUI AND I! <3

Me: "Heyy! Guess where I am!"
Mel: "Don't want. Where?"
Me: =.=" "Your house void deck! I travelled from Jurong to give you love on V day!Do you believe me or not?"

Mel: "I DON'T WANT TO. (believe you)"

Heartbreaker lehh. My heart somersault from my chest to my throat, committed suicide by jumping from my mouth and shattered to a gazillion pieces on the floor.

ZANNE AND I! <3

From Sembawang, went to Zanne's house which was already like.. 11 when I reached?? Missed 812 from the bus interchange and I really had to rush since I told my mum I'll be home by 9pm. Did an amazing thing which I still don't know how I did it. I walked to her house! That's the distance from Yishun MRT to Safra, with my blisters.

Anything's worth it for my Buddy Buddy (:

When I reached her house, Auntie and their helper shoved me with cake and brewed barley much to the delight of my starved-until-concave-inwards tummy. Realised it was Auntie's birthday that day too! Zanne's gor gor went overseas so my surprise surprised her too (: HAPPY BIRTHDAY AUNTIE!

Her parents super nice! They drove me to DK's house in Khatib and DK refused to believe we were at her house. So by the time DK eventually changed her clothes and came downstairs to find us, Zanne's parents and us wanted to bang our heads against the wall already. So long! Tsk tsk. Felt bad making Uncle, Auntie and Zanne to wait for DK with me. And I took home 1 1/2 clice of Auntie's cake somemore :/

DK's mum aka my Hou Peng Yoo helped us snap this shot HAHAHAA
Wanted to tell Auntie that her daughter always bully me, PINCH ME LEHH

This girl ah, refused to believe Zanne brought her "secret admirer" to visit her and called up Mel to ask and Mel msged me "You and Zanne going DK's house?" Hahaa! Lucky Mel didn't tell DK, if not my plan would have failed. :D

Pardon my mimi eyes, had an adventurous day going to places and spreading love so Cupid's tired already (:

DK AND I! <3

Wanted to surprise Daryl but it was 11, going to 12 already and I was scared I'll miss the last train and the last bus too so called him to explain. And yes, delivery girl's tired so no special delivery to the chimpanzee staying in ArooZOO, Ben. HAHAHAA I just had to add the Zoo in. :P

WHISTLE AND I! <3>

Actually in the previous pic I was checking out my blister laa. Have you seen a blister this big??
Gross to the max luh! Like a pillow of water, puffy puffy

The next day it stuck to my socks and the skin peeled! Daaamn pain

So now it's like that. :/
I think the left part of my body very accident-prone, it's always the left side that's injured or at least more seriously than the right. SIGHHH.

Anyway no matter how many scars or injuries I'll have in future, I trust that you all will love me just as I love all of you (: Trust is the foundation to Love, you know (:
Without trust, we can't even be friends, much less good friends and Buddy Buddies :/
But we trust each other and you all love this Cupid right! Oh man, so ego. Hahahaa!

I LOVE YOU ALL! <3>

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Sunday, March 1, 2009 / 1:16 PM

Broken
This fragile thing now
And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces
And I've thrown my words all around
But I can't, I can't give you a reason

I feel so broken up
And I give up
I just want to tell you so you know

Here I go
Scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only, My only one

Made my mistakes, Let you down
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone

And something's breaking up
I feel like giving up
I won't walk out until you know

Here I go
Scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only, My only one

Here I go
So dishonestly
Leave a note, for you my only one
And I know you can see right through me
So let me go and you will find someone

Here I go
Scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one, no one like you
You are my only, My only one

My only one
My only one
My only one

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