I am feeling so screwed.
I feel like breaking down and cry.
I am so stupid, letting myself get affected so easily and being so hopeless.

What if I get retained.

My God, I'm so scared.
Dang, hate this feeling. Where's my Evelyn Chen. Come back please. I need you.

Sometimes I wonder why do I work so hard
Just to be smacked in the face with the label of a loser.
You want evidence?
Falling into the drain, Handing in wrong questions, Walking into the gents
You want affirmation?
So many people out there have called you a loser, what else?
You're nothing but a loser, girl.

I dont want to work so hard, hoping for so much more
Yet the more I motivate myself, the higher my hopes are
then the harder I'll fall and the hurt will be more acute.
What's the point of it all.

I am trying. I am trying. I am trying.
Gorby, be my friend. Truman, you too? Stalin would you befriend me?
How shameless can I get.

Daryl: "ok, we pray for the best, prepare for the worst" HOW APT.
Mid-year it was bad. I dont want HISTORY to repeat itself. So much for cyclical structure.

URGH. I WONT LET THIS FEELING OVERPOWER ME.
Even if i'm fighting a losing battle, I must fight to the very last.

GO! GO! POWER RANGER!


To Dabian, let's go work out after promos mans.. I WANT MY HOT BOD BACK

but for now.



IT'S WAR.



I'm praying to come back victorious, victorious but undoubtedly scathed.